My House

Today I'm grateful for my house.  It's actually a townhome, but it is a lot nicer than living in an apartment.  I was able to get into by a spot of good luck.  I worked with the previous tenant, and she knew that Josh and I were looking for a place to live.  So she mentioned she was moving out soon, and I should contact the landlord (who is the owner of the place I used to work at) and see about moving in.  Well, we were able to move in very easily, no credit check, or deposit, or any of that junk.  And I like this place a lot.  It is a two-bedroom, one-bathroom,  has a nice basement that is partially finished, has a good washer and dryer (major bonus!), and it has a fireplace, which Josh really enjoys.  It's the nicest place I've started living on my own. 

*If you don't want to read about my whininess, then you should probably stop here.*

I posted this because I just had a breakdown.  Things have been hard for us financially lately, and I really want to turn that around but at the moment I don't know how.  We haven't really been able to afford anything but bills and some food, and after it being like this for months, and especially since we used to actually have some disposable income, it's taken a toll on me.  Then today Josh told me that they cut his hours at work in half from what he normally gets just because they felt like giving the hours to someone else, who is a crappier worker.  That was the straw that broke this camel's back.  I just started crying and going into a spiral of negativity which is really weird for me because I'm usually a rather positive person and I don't let a lot of stuff get me down, but I just couldn't stop thinking that nothing's going to change and we're going to be stuck broke, just barely getting by, forever.  I know it's silly thinking, but yeah.  So I was sitting here, crying, thinking that there is nothing good in my life right now (except for Josh) and I realized that was not true and I needed to write out something that is good and I am grateful for.  And the first thing that came to mind was my house.  Even if it is slightly expensive given our budget.  And after writing this I realized how silly I'm being because there are people out of work right now, and who have health problems, and who don't have a place to stay, or are forced to stay with friends or family or something.  So I guess things are good, relative to that.